Oh well, so I didn't even survive 2 days in solitary retreat, a complete failure I must say. The monkey mind, as Sayadaw Dr Sunanda tells me, is very powerful. Yes it is, and with all its might I was made a mockery and flew myself back from Kedah prematurely, too prematurely.
All is not lost though, through this experience I actually gained some new insights, will probably pen them down later. And as Sayadaw has advised me when I did my final respects before leaving, Go Home and Resolve all the outstanding Life Issues and Come back to Learn Again Fast!
Yes Sayadaw I will.