Saturday, October 31, 2009

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Nonsensical Blabbering

happened in office between geis and mickey yesterday. (just an extract and translated mostly from mandarin, cannot remember all details haha)

geis: which comes first, chicken or egg?

mickey: last time i think it can be either. but now i know its chicken.

geis: WAH, how u know its chicken?

mickey: cos there is a report and scientist have discovered the oldest fossil of the ancestors of chickens but not the fossils of egg shells. so it has been scientifically proven that chicken comes first.

geis: then how do u know these scientist are right? so ur basing this knowledge on the authority of these scientist?

mickey: of cos these scientist have the authority, and they have the evidence of the fossil. just as day is day and night is night.

geis: yah and whoever who first declared day is called 'day' could well have been bitten by an insect just at that moment and said 'OW' instead, then for thousands of years we will know 'day' as 'OW', isn't it?

blah blah blah (cannot remember :) ).

mickey: just like u believe in all those fa lun stuff, isn't it also based on some form of authority?

geis: eh, please do not equate the teachings as fa lun, they are not the same.

(mickey links everything that is buddhism to fa lun gong which is a misunderstanding, the teachings geis is referring to is dharma)

mickey: and who dictates the difference? what authority is there to say they are different?

again blah blah blah.

at this point beebee came into mickey's room and interrupted, asking if we have snacks. mickey complained to her geis has made him vomit blood.

The Ego

when this child is born, he has totally no idea of everything that is going on around him, but he has that capacity to learn. and learn he does.

he learns that he has feelings. he feels uncomfortable when the nappy is wet and soiled. he feels pain when he is hungry. and these feelings creates sensations that are uneasy.

he learns that he can see. and the sights he sees for the first time are all so interesting. some of these sights capture his attention more than others, creating a feeling of joy, which in turn creates a tingling sensation in his body which makes him at ease.

then he can hear, the voices of his parents singing a lullaby. the mishmash of sounds and voices all around, though confusing, fascinates him. bit by bit he learns to differenciate these sounds and voices, and is able to recognize and put them in order.

there's also the sense of smell, taste and touch. and all these 5 senses aggregates into perception. with perception, he learns and categorizes everything he experience and gives everything an identity.

and so there is form. and so every moment he begins to interact with all the forms that he perceives, giving rise to an array of feelings for these forms, and with these feelings arises volition. the will and intentions; reactions to the different feelings.

and there is conciousness. awareness. that which gives rise to the rest and at the same time is created by the rest.

a voice called out.

voice: aiyo baby geis wake up already ah. geis u guai guai ok dun cry mama go get milk for u.

sight and sound: beautiful being (form) making sounds to me.

that beautiful being carries him and feeds him milk, and the sense of touch that is so comfortable. he is happy and will continue to react the same way to this form.

and soon he learns more. he learns the being wants him to call it mama, and mama calls him geis. and so he becomes geis as a result. and then with time and more experience he believes and it becomes natural that he is geis. it becomes more and more apparent that there is geis and there are others, and geis becomes separated from the others.

and thus, from the 5 skandhas, the ego is arise.

(impt note: ego here refers to to the perceived self, and is not 'real')

Friday, October 30, 2009

what's the best way to start?

assume the best way to start off this blog is by explaining the title. yet there is still a feeling of dissatisfaction.. no feeling of 'oomph', no feeling of 'waaaaahhhh' to match the immensity of such a title. sounds so cheem (profound) it would probably take a million years for one to use the thinking faculty to decipher the message.

what is this all about? in a nutshell this is about living, realizing the mind, and the experiences of everyday life.

so conditioned are we in this colourful world that we are lost, that we continue to seek the meaning of it all. we take everything we see, hear, touch, taste, smell, feel as 'real' and give everything an inherent identification, resulting in a sense of separation between 'me and you', 'this and that', 'dogs and cats'. not just that, every occurrence seems to be either 'going our way' or 'not going our way', creating huge rifts in our feelings about the ongoings in this life; a moment we can be in 9th heaven and the next the deepest depth of hell.

the list goes on. thats life we say. or is it really?

where does this direct us to? who really am 'i' and what is 'my' purpose in this life?

(where, who, what are the 3 most commonly used directives in the thinking faculty. not to forget how and the infamous WHY :) )